Help! I'm afraid to mess this up!

[ezekiel37]

I'm so scared to detach....I have to, I know I have to. I just get consumed with fear....right now, he's still paying the mortgage, helping with household chores, the kids,etc. I don't have any family around, and really do need help with stuff. I almost think he is waiting for me to reach my breaking point....I just want him to own this decision to D. I don't want to! I want my husband back! The one I've been with half my life, we grew up together,were the best of friends, never awkward or uncomfortable. What the heck happened to him? No answers at all. Maybe April vacation will be the opportunity for me to break away or a while and get some distance.....and maybe with me gone he will run straight to the ow. The kids and I can't stay in his orbit just to keep him out of hers. That's a pretty pathetic existance.... I don't want to be pathetic. I want to be me?