Not confused...trying to move forward...

[BRNR]

Are woman natural thinkers of everything...I sure do think a lot when I am not busy.

So, had a great night with my boys...we went to dinner at a place we haven't gone to ever and they liked it and want to go back.

Got home and h had called and left a message for the boys...ending the message with "I love you both". I have to say, it rubbed me wrong, and I really don't know why.

And then I started thinking, it really bothers me that H has and may never show any genuine remorse for what he has done to me and what he continues to do. I am not even sure how to categorize this feeling. Am I angry? Am I sad? Am I hurt? Am I annoyed? What is the feeling?. I am not sure, all I know is that the only thing that came across my mind was "you fvcker".

Just curious, and maybe someone from piecing or who is reconciled can answer this. Do they ever express this once the come out of the tunnel and did it feel genuine once received?

I am not sure that I feel that my H and I would reconcile, but I do feel that I would want some expression of remorse. Just because they are void of feelings, this doesn't mean we are. Us LBS's have to live with those feelings based on our MLC'ers words and actions, and in my case, may never really get past it completely without that.

Today my hope is that one day I get a sincere expression of remorse from my H. Hopefully I get this one day.