And all what you have said is true. I know that H wouldn't have had this affair if there wasn't something that he wasn't getting from me... I just wish I knew what is was, or that he would tell me. Weather it's because he doesn't want to hurt me any more or he just can't put it into words..... It just kills me inside.
I will have a look on line to take the test, it may help me get some answers.
H came home last evening from his week away with OW. I was out when he got home, then he was out when I got home. When he finally got home he seemed very distant. We had a short conversation, we didn't feel as though we had that much to say to each other.
I told H I would be moving out in 3wks, that I had got the unit. He didn't really say anything, no emotion, just nodded his head. I suppose by H's lack of response I felt as though he didn't really care, and at this moment I feel as though I have lost him forever??...
I know that I need to act "as if", as hard as it is as I am an emotional being and tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. I will continue to focus on being the best that I can be, especially over the next 3 weeks. Will continue to focus on just being his friend which is easy because he is...
I know even after 3 months it is still only early days on this journey and the road is going to be long...
Thanks again for the gr8 advice KD.... I'll take day at a time
M:47 H:46 T:8.5yrs SD:19 May/2012 ?? H having EA Dec/2010 H distant Jan/10/2013 Confirms PA with OW for 1 month March/24/2013 OW still in the pic M:Moved out May 4th
