Of Feral Cats, and All That

[TSquared2]

Thank you rH...your words mean a lot, and sending happy R vibes to you and H...

Not much to update this week...

Some of W's withdrawal was due to the unpredictable (now) hormone flux and flow, some was because she got sick (again) and some I am pretty sure was processing her path the last few years. The avoiding eye contact leads me to speculate that...I don't really know, she hasn't told me anything, so not putting much energy into that speculation, no point, and besides, I have discovered that I am more of an optimist than I ever thought before, so rolling with the postiive spin I choose...

For me, still busy as heck with work and all, but I have managed to drop to 14.5-15% bf from 17% in a short amount of time...that is one of the many good things that have come from my LBS journey...I know what works with my body efficiently now to get to where I want to be. I also now now that at my age, no more taking a couple months off...it just comes back too quickly and easily.

Other than that, garden, kids, pets, taxes and just life...it is good, just wish I had W fully back for that finishing touch addition to it. April/May seems to be a cyclical change time for her, last year this is when she apologized and warmed up to me and the idea of "us", the year before it was the re-beginning of entering the tunnel for phase 2 of mlc and starting to detach from the M, the year before that was the beginning of the end of phase 1 and OM then, the year before that was the beginning of Phase 1/lite mlc replay and initial contact with high school flame (OM #1) via the evil fb/mylife websites, the year before that, her father started cancer treatments...lol...I guess I just proved the utility of journelling...

Hoping for a better change this year, initial signs seem good.

Expectations still very close to or at zero, though...I do try to learn from my mistakes.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

T^2