i saw your thread and wanted to say hello and welcome you to DB. it is the best place to get support and great guidance through the most difficult of times. i am working now but will read your thread in more detail and write more later.
take care of yourself, RT, as much as you can right now. it does get better..
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13