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Thanks Cat.
Everything about the OW I've learned from H. It all comes on bits & pieces. Sometimes, in the beginning of all this, I would ask questions. H would answer sometimes & sometimes wouldn't. There has been a few alcohol induced conversations where most has been revealed. He also reveals more about us & his feelings for me in these convos. One was a month or so ago when we were in Las Vegas & the other was on New Years Eve.

I haven't really looted at as a competition before, but that is exactly what I have been doing. I have to stop.

H hasn't told OW about pregnancy. That's why he wants me to terminate, so he will never have to. He's afraid she'll leave him. OW thinks H has nothing to do with me & has not been involved with me in regards to anything. He tells her that we are 'roommates' & that's it. OW thinks we don't even speak really unless it is about the kids & is necessary.