wroooooooooohhhhhh - lone wolf girl here. ya know dawn- i like the way you put this all - clear & rite on point. (in the face of my ramble-age) i admire your ability to cut thru the crappola and just say it - i agree & feel it too - all of it just as you do.
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You become a lone wolf, upholding .... Your own convictions are put through the test, along with your faith in everything you do at this point, we have been let down to such a degree that we must go through are own growth in order to regain a new stronger sence of self, IMHO!
I know- wtf is up with that??? the self-questioning we're (I'm) forced to do - because some h we loved is spinning out of control and may be a waste of skin (mine) and not at all the person we thought.
and yet - they "take us out" with them. the lesson being that in life people will use you as much as humanly possible to have their way. EVERYONE- everyone - everyone....
oh yeah- not to allow oneself to be damaged by this - to remain the person you are & know &love & keep values you believe in - or believe you should believe in - - DESPITE it all.....
oh well- i keep trying to have compassion & empathy for these people that do not have it themselves-
i don't want to be like them - or become them -
is this me growing? to decide to remain me- despite the world's response? despite what feels like fifty years of trying HARD to do something (perhaps) impossible.? don't know.
i agree about God frowning- good way to put it. if he's there - and participating at all - he frowns at me alot. if you're takng "longer" - then so am i; so i'm sayin you're in good company.. hopefully - we are both justified in our - what would call it? faith? insanity? perseverence in the face of "the enemy" - mwd says we get to admire ourselves in the end - even if we fail - for fighting the good fight....
okay- off to eat a pancake - de-junk the attic - put on some makeup and act as if... etc.
