Irreplaceable

[Takevowsserious]

Thank you everyone for your well wishes and encouragement. It really helps when I'm feeling down.

I wanted to share a few interesting things that happened...

First off, H comes up to bed at 4:00 this morning. That isn't too unusual, except he turns on the lamp beside the bed and asks me, "Do you mind if I climb into bed with you?" I said, "No, I don't care." And went back to sleep.

This morning, I got myself and the boys ready, then loaded up to take them to the sitter before work. I gently tried saying goodbye to H, but he was sound asleep, and I didn't want to wake him.

Now in the past, I would always write him a nice note goodbye. I decided not to this year. Felt like it was pursuit, plus I didn't want him to feel pressured to write back. In the past he would always write me a nice note too. Last year, I came home from work to find this on a post - it note: "Have a good weekend. H"

So this year, I did things differently. I didn't leave him a note. When I picked up the boys after work, I took them to a party supply store to pick out decorations for their upcoming birthday parties. Then, we went out to eat. I wasn't expecting anything from H.

Instead, I come home to find this note on the kitchen counter:

TVS, S4 and S2,

Sorry I missed saying goodbye to everyone this morning. I took sleeping pill last night and was out this morning.

I hope everyone has a good few days while I am gone. I hope everyone stays healthy and your parents get off to visit your sister okay. (They are flying out to see her Saturday). I will call and/or text to check in on everyone and see how you are doing.

Thanks again for letting me get away for trout season. Give the boys hugs and kisses for me. I will see you Sunday.

Love,
H

I am totally shocked.

Then, he texts me to tell me he made it there okay. He asked how the boys were doing.

Not sure what to think.

Thoughts anyone?