Maybe some outside help too? Where did your sense of self worth come from, do you have things you need to work through? You're not really ready to be in a relationship if you're not whole with yourself, so take this time to work that stuff out and know your worth independent of your H. That can't help but be more appealing anyhow, no matter where you go in life.
And, I've been wanting to tell you, SLOW DOWN! you're so reactive! You hardly seem to know how you feel before you're here typing and submitting it, and probably have a habit of being this reactive with H too. I agree with whoever said it above, it sounds like lashing out because of hurt. Decide not to make any decisions, heck decide not to have any opinions, for a whole day or two after something starts to set you off, so you can recenter yourself and think, and act from your true beliefs and toward your own best interest.
This could be another area where you can make some relationship improvements all on your own.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
