Still treading water #4

[Grizz]

Thanks for the comments Spartan. As I am sure most on here know, this stuff will consume you if you let it. Unfortunately, at times, I let it. It may not seem like it in my posts but I am so much better than 3 months ago. But I realize there is much more room for improvement.

Thanks for asking about GAL. The streak continues! Went 2 for 3 Monday night! We are 2-0.

I have definitely started doing more without letting her take the lead (she was always the social chair of the house). Our spring football game is this weekend. We have season tickets. We always tailgate during the regular season. I asked earlier in the week if she was interested in tailgating this weekend. She never really answered. So this morning I started messaging people on my own to see if they were interested in going. W asked me today if I was taking D4 to a bday party Saturday. I told her that I was trying to get people to tailgate this weekend. She then said that she wanted to go. We also got invited to a wedding (a friend of mine that she doesnt know) and she said she didn't know them. I said it is ok if you don't want to go but I need to reply if only 1 or 2 people are coming. She acted surprised that I would go without her but she still never gave me an answer. In the past there is probably no way that I would have gone without her.

I would love to get to the point of not worrying about what W is doing. It is so hard when you are in the same house. I never ask her anymore what she is doing or where she is going.

Last night she asked if anyone wanted to go to the mall with her. Not sure if it was meant for me or just the kids so I delayed any answer until the kids answered. They said no so I just said I will stay with them. I probably wouldn't have gone anyway even if the kids wanted to go.

Spartan, thanks again for telling me to get out of my funk. I guess sometimes I just need to hear that.