Dropped my son off at W's home for the first time today. I had some trepidation about it, and was worried that my emotions about leaving my son might get the the better of me. Through this whole process the last four months my son has been with me almost exclusively, except part days etc. where W would have him at our home. But his care had become primarily mine as she had left to avoid me.
With a lot of baby steps though I have been feeling a great deal more clarity and strength to keep it together, especially for my son. A very curious thing happened though when I dropped him off. We were both happy/smiling and w was in tears. S asked for a family hug before I left and W was very emotional.
Not trying to read into anything as most of it is guilt I am sure. I just feel good about doing it in a positive and composed way. Showing that I am together and sure of myself in all this. I have a long road of self-improvement ahead of me, but I know that it is the right action to fix myself.
Me-36 W-31 M-7 S-5 BD Dec/12- things were wrong for awhile, head was in the sand
Seeking means: to have a goal Finding means: to be free, to be receptive, to have no goal
