Advice

[cbtdad]

Just continue to focus on you. ACCEPT that things will never be the same even if they are with your W. It will still be about you in the end and you can come out a stronger person. I'm focusing on no matter what I say to her this is the situation we find ourselves in. I can't force to fix or work on anything. I have no right to ask her to cut off things with OM. It $ucks!!
But I know I will be a better man in the end regardless of what happens.
One of the things I have told W from the get go that has never waivered is the fact that we have a young son and all I ask for is that at some point we actually give it a real shot through MC or something else. Not just us two talking about it. I know you don't stay married just for kids, but I do believe you try everything possible. W and I both come from broken families and I want so badly to fix that for him. But once again I can't force her to give it a real shot. That's on her.
I really feel sometimes I just miss having my family together. I'm not totally sure if I actually miss her. Partly because of the person who she has become is not someone I would care to be married to. But I know who she could be and was at one point.