Tough time last night-up from 1-4 AM thinking about all this stuff. I think the fact that the final date is coming is really hard on the emotions. I will add a section about this to the book. When I finally drifted off, I dreamt that my H was having a "family" dinner with the OW and her family. I was watching from a distance. This shows how bruised my ego is that he's having this R. I am aware it's my ego, but heck it's hard anyway.
I emailed him this AM to ask for the final account balances and said it was no coincidence that they're forecasting the worst weather of the week for tomorrow (court date.) It's going to be pouring and they even expect sleet. He replied I was right about the weather. I wonder if he really agrees or is doing the appeasing thing. I guess it doesn't matter.
So bottom line, even if you've been treated like crap and you know it's for the best to part ways with your spouse, divorce really really hurts.
