Wow Ali, SO nice that you came back for an update! I'm SO glad that things are still well with you two Gives me hope somedays when I'm feeling low. H and I are back together, but I'm still ni lots of pain Most days are actually fine, but every now and then I have a 'low' day, and just want to cry, and fall into a heap on the floor This is after 1 .5 years back together. Today is one of those days.... My pain comes mostly I think from the inability for me to get over the OW. She is far prettier than I am or ever could be, and I find myself even lower when I feel a bout of low self esteem from this coming on (stemming from thoughts of her). I'm by no means an ugly person, but FEEL ugly because of this - on my low days, and don't know how to stop feeling that way I also feel very scared to love H again....I feel like I built a wall that can never come down for him or anyone again Anyway....like I said this is one of my low days....hopefully tomorrow will be a bit brighter...
Take care Ali And PLEASE keep posting Wish Kalni would give us an update every now and then too xx
Gives me hope somedays when I'm feeling low. H and I are back together, but I'm still ni lots of pain 
Most days are actually fine, but every now and then I have a 'low' day, and just want to cry, and fall into a heap on the floor 
