I cant think of much that I can do that I am not already. I don't have a gavebok account. Dont have a personaln email. Don't have a personal cell....I use my work email and cell phone....No locks...don't hide it...I tell her she can look at anything at anytime....I'm a family man...I leave work and come home. Sometimes I have to leave out of town for 3 days but I make myself available at all times.
Now that I read this I am sure the impression is that she sounds psycho...shes not. A lot of the above is by choice. I work on a computer most of the day...talk to my team via cell.email I'm..After work I want to disconnect. I don't have enough time to get stuff done let alone cheat and have another woman...IMPOSSIBLE!
She does have a lot of insecurities and I can see she is trying to not be "psycho". But her prior relationship. Her mom and dads relationship (cheating. Divorce) her sisters relationships (same).makes her very sensitive to this stuff. I know I "punched" her right where it hurts most....but I truley didn't mean to.
Only thing she is saying at this point is "I feel like your pressuring me for an answer" when I ask about working on our marriage and starting to heal. Ive been cautious about this....I bring it up once a week... I reply...l I'm gonna ask from time to time cause you haven't given me any better idea of when to check. She has a hard time communicating in words so I don't necessarily think she will bring it up.
Honestly... I feel I am a good man. I am a good provider. Good looking and go to he gym to stay healthy and fit. I don't go out and hang at bars....I have sacrificed my needs for my families...I am a good dad and love being with my family...Trust me I'm not without faults. I'm driven and focused..to a fault...I have a hard time balancing responsibilities and my families needs...let alone mine. I am under a lot of stress so sometimes I am short..I have high expectations... So yeah I'm not easy to deal with either. But I didn't give up on her when we were having a hard time with intimacy or her first attitude or.....we've had our share..that's part of being married right? Overcomming these are what brings us closer right?
Like I said before. I don't know how to get this started. I hues that's what makes it so hard is hat it seems to be all in her hands...maybe she likes the control for now?
