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[needgrace]

busting, you are so so worthy of being loved.

JOURNAL

today i heard a LBS say when they fell out of love...

and i asked myself if i was still in love with STBX... and the answer was very unclear, for the FIRST time...

i think Scared Silly's lists have shifted something within me.. I had started the list before of what STBX has done to me that was not loving.. but I had never before done the list of the loving things I had done for STBX. That list really created a shift. I think that my shame bought into all these lacks that STBX found and reported in me.

And tbh, I am not perfect and could grow in many ways

but when I looked at my list, I realized that I did show her real love and caring and that I could not be the scapegoat any longer for everything in our M.. and if she is not willing to own her part or work on this M.. then she is not the right W for me.