My painting party wasn't for you, I like blue!

[albamarie]

Thanks everyone,

I know he is not going to move, nor does he want to, I find ea in his life to be extremely damaging, and very addicting, and disrespectful to the fullest, and that is the biggest reason for my lack of patients with him. That alone is my the rage that wells up inside of me and wants him out of my life completely, for ever. But, I do wait is seems!

I have already told him when we part it will be for good, I'm not interested in knowing him or dealing with him part time since he has ea to be his friend now. It's not and ultimatum, it's my truth. He says he's ok with that because he doesn't deserve anything better, I know fog spew! My real reason is also I don't need to see the results of my 53yr old H rolling in the gutter.

maybe on some level you and the kids and the baby coming are a big big wakeup call of the family continuing - having something happy to look forward to - not crumbling because of him- life continuing DESPITE him- and he wants in (or back in) or maybe he can see it's something going forward and upbeat and wants to attach himself somehow to that? i don't know- a half baked kind of notion about him and "his family" and what might be in his head based on comments?

Nero, you are forever the optimist and I so love that about you. You make me look at things from a rosier point of view, I'm quit the sour puss these days and should not be aloud to think and make decisions alone. Just maybe I have, by being myself and bringing my family forward, shown him something to look forward to if he were to "come back". He has actually said he's considering all the loss he would face and that keeps him stable, but he is fighting the turnaround in him to be a good man. He's resisting living a good life, who says that!!!!

H spins me right round, baby
right round like a record, baby
Right round round round
He spins me right round, baby
Right round like a record, baby
Right round round round. Lol!!! Dead or Alive, how ironic.