I know it hurts, T. I do. I wish there was something I can say to help.
My xh went away with her on our 25th wedding anniversary. I think they even planned it that way. I didnt think I'd make it through that trip. Felt my heart break.
And then, I did.
Each day, slowly, I grew stronger. It still hurt, but, not the searing pain that it did in the beginning.
And I knew that what they had, had nothing to do with me. She was a mess and so was he. It was a relationship based on lies and insecurities and crisis and self loathing. It had nothing to do with love and committment.
I began to really believe that I loved him enough to let him go. That was my gift to him. And I knew that no matter what, I would be ok.
My xh has faced some of what he's done. Just a small portion of it, really. I know that if he ever realizes the depth of it, it would bring him to his knees.
T, she is nothing. I know you know that. These are two people who are broken trying to find a way out of the tar pit.
They just dont know that they are just pulling each other further down into it.
And you know, sometimes you gotta get to the bottom of it before you can begin your climb up out of it.
T, try to do something special for yourself this weekend. And try not to imagine what he may or may not be doing.
I found out many times when I let my mind wander like that, I was very wrong.
And yea, they think they are so slick, um, not even close.
