Little update from yesterday. My W came to pick up my S. I was working from home. I ended up following up with my W on the last text I sent her where I asked her whether she just wanted me to follow up with my L on the last item we have on our agreement, whether she to discuss it via phone and try to work something out, whether she wanted to meet, or whether there was a remote chance our conversation changed anything. She gave me a very vague answer, but ultimately I clarified she wanted me to just work with my L on that item.
My W's reasoning is that she has a lot of things up in the air right now. She's jobless and she's living with her parents. The D is one thing she feels she can get closure on, so she can check that box, so to speak.
In part of our conversation, I just mentioned if we go all the way through the D process, that'll be it for me. I will close the door on the M. I didn't say it to get a reaction, it's just the way I feel. She said she understood.
We pretty much left it at that. I have started a dialogue with my L to at least get the agreement back in her court and we'll go from there.
Truth of the matter is I think that's exactly what I needed to do. My W will not see me as who I am if she views me as merely as getting in the way of what she feels she needs to do.
