Shiss, from (painful) personal experience I understand why the mindset of day to day wondering about what is going to show up on the counter, in the mail etc.........
I can tell you that it got a little bit better for me when I could move from that point to a place where my focus was on what can I do to prepare myself to deal with it if/when it were to happen. not an easy place to get you, but day by day it begins to feel different. Not always perfect though - if you are following my thread you can see that today I found it tough to even follow my own advice........
I guess in reality my comments above are just a slightly different way of saying focus on what you are most able to control(you and your actions) and have faith in yourself and God that you will be guided on how to deal with the rest.....
Sorry that you find yourself here but it is the best place to be in these trying situations....... Keep posting and stay strong.
Me-48,W-51 M-22,T-24 S- 18,16,9 Feb-Jul '11 Away from Home, after initial B date Aug-Dec '11 Back at Home on couch Dec '11-now Same bedroom, room mates only Dec '14 W files initial D paperwork
