Ok, I did some work. Calmed down. Sometimes just getting it out on here is so helpful. In the meantime, H did what he does and texted me that he is crazy and he was sorry. I didn't respond, and won't.

I think my need to tell him, is to control. Like, if I tell him, then he won't keep pursuing me. Or that it's somehow not fair to him. Or that X, or that Y fear. He knows I'm pretty much done. I've said it, and I'm showing it. He may never stop, even if we D. So, detach. Continue what I'm doing. I can't control this. Only me.

M: 9 yrs
T: 13 yrs
H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months
Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs
Dbing 12/12
S 1/13
7/13 H moved back in basement.
8/13 #3 born
10/13 still cheating
10/13 He moves across country, I file for D