Up and down on the rollercoaster...well, we tried to play together otnight, but he kept having customers and such, so I finally decided to get offline. I think I sounded a little annoyed when I got on the phone, but I tried to keep it together.
The conversation was really short, really light, NO emotion really on his part but being apologetic that his shop was so busy. It hurts to feel like he doesn't miss me. It hurts that he didn't say anything like "I love you." I don't know what's going on in his head right now, and I am so afraid that it's nothing. That he thinks of me as just a friend...mebbe I am just a good friend and nothing else... I am bummed and don't know what to do or hope for right now. I want to call and beg for reassurance but I'm NOT going to!! I am gonna try...
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
