Crazy little thing called MLC

[reachingHigher]

Hi sweetie!

H is such a selfish jerk.

Yes, he is right now. But he wasn't always that way, obviously, otherwise he wouldn't have been there for you and each boy before, as you described. He has taken a trip away right now.....but he may come back.

I'm seeing now that my H's manners and kindness that I once loved about him are making a return. Just lots of little things are reappearing slowly just like they disappeared slowly.

So....it may not help you here in the short term, but you still, even now, foster that hope in your heart that he can work through this.

In the meantime, I do agree with AJ about FB. Looking back over this year especially, my most sleepless nights and griefs often have to so with activities/pics on FB. I didn't have the strength to not look. I felt it was my right to know what was going on. And I've paid the price in grief. And I probably still didn't know the truth of it. Just guesses.

Do you have a backup coach for the birth?

Raine, I had my older son out of wedlock and my sister was there. It was a very special time, and I will never forget the bond we shared over that event.

Although it's ideal your H would be there, if he is not, it will still be a very special time, and one to always be treasured. It just may look different than the other births, that doesn't mean it's bad.

We are all thinking of you.
Hugs today,
rH