I think you've just realized something again today. It's never going to get better than this. It is what it is. If you accept it - then it's your life.
YOU need to be the person you want to be with. You're the only person you can really count on.
I have never been a fan of Gabe's or of you staying with him. Frankly, that is because it reminds me so much of my marriage. And I would not have that back for the world. At one time - I really wanted that back. But being out of it now makes me realize how very draining and depressing that would be.
If "I" tell you what I think you need to do it is because I am hoping with my life that you will do it. But I think you are letting fear rule rather than taking that tiny step towards independence.
If you have to "explain" what you need to buy in the way of groceries for a man who is eating with you - that absolutely ridiculous. You are not his mother. Send him to the store with the list and let him get the food.
If you are in pain - you need to go to the dr and if you don't get the answers you need - go to another dr, clinic whatever. If Gabe does not care about your pain - DO YOU REALLY WANT TO LIVE WITH THIS MAN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE???
Mish - I love your posts on Facebook - it gives me a better insight to who you are. I think you are a fun-loving, caring, kind girl. One I would love to have nearby as a girlfriend to hang out with. I honestly think you would be 10 times happier ON YOUR OWN than with someone who brings you down so much.
LISTEN to yourself.
And some people really DO care. Count me in as one please.
