My painting party wasn't for you, I like blue!

[albamarie]

Oh, my goodness! My H announced today that he has moved back into my room and now he is here to stay, but he is a man without feelings or heart so can I handle that. He said, I'm here but I am going to turn into an assaHole again, not to you, but you better pray for God to stike me down.

Really! I said I have been trying for weeks to work out a S so he can be free, live alone and play with his maggot friends. I went as far as saying, your right I will be ok when you leave and I will maintain the house and family, to which he answered I trust you will. Then I said to him nowhere in that conversation did I say please come "home" I want you back. I even reminded him about helping him with suitcases to which he said, smiling, an evil twisted man like me doesn't need things if he's leaving his family, so I wouldn't have packed up anyways.

He said he's going to work as much as he can, come home, do dishes, and be empty, can I handle that? I said no, I asked you to leave! Is this part of him doing the MLC opposite? I said your free to go, he said I was always free to leave, I said then why do you say " let me go". He said he doesn't understand the craziness in his head, he doesn't want to live anywhere, not even here, he wants to die. Though he does say he is not suicidal. He hates life because its just to hard and unfair, and he's a huge coward, and afraid, so he's just gonna sit in my house and be empty.

I said go live with ea, he said no, I keep telling you we are not in a R, she's crazies than I thought. I said I'm not leaving my family. Does he want the security of home to go crazy without fear? He's quiet, to himself in my room, but oh so gone! I'm not inclined to push him out the door, he's so sick, is that bad of me, am I being a doormat or companionate? I told him people are asking why don't I just throw you out, he said tell them because we're not that kind of family???!!! Huh?!