Bomb dropped on me last week

[JMax]

It's been a pretty good day for me today. I got approved for the new student loan, so plan A is to get a good job. If that doesn't materialize, plan B is to return and get my LLM in Taxation. It should only take this summer session and Fall.

Regardless of what happens with work/school, after doing some soul-searching, my ultimate goal is to open a legal clinic for underprivileged. Don't know how attainable that is, but that is what would give my life meaning. I am not chasing riches. I think I'd be real happy being a street lawyer like in the Grisham book. Maybe focus on tax appeals, bankruptcy, ssdi, ssi, and veterans benefits. Maybe through in some advocacy for homeless.

Tomorrow I have a MC appt. I do not expect good things. At the last appt, she basically shouted that she was done, that she wanted a D.

I have so many emotions roiling under the surface and am really torn as to what I want, going forward. I have friends telling me one thing, family telling me another, parents saying their piece, then there is what my logic tells me to do, what my heart tells me to do, what I should do because of my upbringing, what I should do for my kids, and what I should do for my wife -- all full well knowing that what I want is only a piece of the puzzle. I also know that all this crap is going through my wife's head. Unless anyone has a better idea, I just plant to listen 80/20 and validate every chance I get.