Yesterday was interesting. The Realtor stopped by and said he wouldn't be surprised if we got an offer on the house from the people that looked at it on Saturday. That may pose a problem since I wasn't really anticipating selling so quickly.
Not that I mind, but W is adament about not moving until after YS graduates at the end of May. The Realtor knows this, but we figure we'll wait to see if we do get an offer before we have to worry about it.
I made tacos for dinner and W and I talked about her C appointment. She told me this is the first appt she's had since early Nov. C didn't know W had moved home and didn't know W had stopped taking medication. I didn't know it had been that long because she's been pretty evasive when I ask about it.
W told her that she had seen no improvement with the ADs so she stopped. I asked if she mentioned that both myself and D said we did notice a change? She said no.
She also said C was very direct and makes things sound so simple that it frustrates her. When W talked about moving this summer C said "Good, do you feel ready?". Then W said "But it will be hard to leave the kids" C said "I can see where that might be difficult. So don't go if you don't want to." (thanks a lot C!) W said she felt a little guilty about not being able to just come to a decision. I didn't know what to say to that.
She also told C that I had been putting too much pressure on her. Said that she really likes this extra work with the school, but I get upset when she works in the evening or on the weekend. C told her that it was my problem and she should do what she wants.
I've pretty much given up trying to convince W that it isn't just the working, it's the whole thing...the working the nights out, the shopping, the seperate bedrooms. Even when she is home, she says she doesn't want to do anything. She just thinks it's all about her working a couple of nights a week.
We got into another argument last night. Not a big one, but it ended the night on a bad note...again. I sent an email to apologize this morning and her reply was:
Quote: I understand I have lost your trust and it will take time to regain. If you feel like it is getting too hard, let me know and I will move out. Really I do understand. We are both working on getting past things and I think us talking about our feelings helps but it could get rougher before it gets better.
I'm still thinking about how to respond to that. As far as I'm concerned, her moving out makes the decision real easy. I won't do the seperate household thing again.
In the meantime, W emails me and says that C called her doctor and got her on new medication...Lexapro. I checked it out and it's supposedly works faster (1-2 weeks) and has less side-effects than some of the other SSRIs.
I downloaded a couple of articles off of the internet and sent them to W. Told her that maybe this one will help her more. Her reply to that email:
Quote: I hope this works soon. All I do is feel like crying!
