We are all trying to get you take focus off your husband and look at yourself . Really really look at yourself . You know why??? Because I wasted 1 year if my life on this forum being a victim and doing the blame game.
So yes bravo for recognizing and intercepting your behavior. Guess what that will need to continue on for the rest of your life. I have accepted that I will have to DB for the rest of my life if I want things to work
If you are just making changes to win back your H you will fail and he will see right through it but.... If you start focusing only on you and make true changes he will come back and if not he is a fool for leaving
Treat your business as a day job and him as a peer.
Are you going to any self growth stuff? Local church or women's retreats? Counseling or effective communications ? How about going to the 5 love languages website and taking quiz and discovering your own love language . And then guess your husbands . Maybe your husband isn't capable of speaking in your love language. Maybe this will help u with expectations or shine a light on some stuff. FYI my W doesn't always speak my LL and I'm learning to learn another LL.
If I didn't care I wouldn't post . Believe me I know your sitch sux. Bond once said stop trying to figure out craziness. Maybe u need too do same and start doing your work