I wasn't trying to beat you up or say you aren't doing anything right. Not at all.
I saw that AS posted something and commented that he has said it before, but feels you didn't read it. I have felt that way and I know Mr Bond has said it.
All I was trying to say, was that I think you might want to try to slow down a bit, and really read DB again, and read your thread/threads again. Then you might see a bit of what we all see.
Did I see progress in your convo, yes. However, you continuely put blame on your H. His feelings, his words, behavior. I know I've spoken to you on this many, many times. If you want to DB, or honestly have a happy life and interactions with humans...you have to put their actions out of your mind when you look at YOUR actions. No one can make me DO anything. I can justify it. Man, imagine all the things I could (trust me, and I do imagine ) to my H and these OW and would be totally justified. No one on earth would ever fault a pregnant woman with 2 small children who's H is doing the things mine is. But, who do I want to be?
M: 9 yrs T: 13 yrs H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs Dbing 12/12 S 1/13 7/13 H moved back in basement. 8/13 #3 born 10/13 still cheating 10/13 He moves across country, I file for D