Birthday was OK. W got me a humidor, something I've always wanted, but never bothered to get for myself. Kids got me this big binder to store CDs in. It holds like 208 CDs...I have 12. Now I have to go buy some.
OS leaves today. We all went out to eat last night and had a pretty good time. I think I'm going to miss having him around a little.
Overall things are going OK. The house is looking good and should officially be on the market here pretty soon. The other two kids are doing well. The stuff with W is just there, as always.
Some days I do pretty well and others I have a hard time mustering the energy to give a d@mn. She seems to be in a good mood most of the time but that's where it stops. Everytime we get some kind of progress, it's a small one. Then there is this plateau that stretches just a little too long. Then, just when I'm ready to throw in the towel she moves forward a little more...but not too much.
Well, you know this story. It's been going on for quite a while. She's afraid of losing control over what's going on. In the meantime, I keep looking for strength and maybe a few answers... Always wondering if this is as good as it's going to get? And can I live with it?
I keep asking the question and avoiding the answer...Hmmmm. Somehow I manage.
