I lost my sh!t over an ebay purchase from China that came by registered mail.
Looking back over the past 18 hours, I'm ashamed about how my mind jumped to the worst conclusion. I probably even made H feel bad when I asked him if he knew anything about the delivery, insinuating he would file for D behind my back. And maybe that cast a bad vibe on the entire dinner last night. I tried to be upbeat and think I was okay, but I'm not sure about anything now. This is a HUGE lesson. I'm never done learning and growing. Just when I think I'm doing pretty darn okay, life holds a mirror up to demonstrate how far I have left to go.
Thanks azguy & advina for the support. You're right, my expectations were way off base (again) and I'm not going to get in the middle of H's relationship w/ his kids.
How to repair the mess last night and try to lay a good foundation for day trip this weekend with kids & H??? Is it a good idea to email him & say 'I felt kind of awkward last night and I'm sorry if it brought down the evening'?? Do I just ignore it & try to do better going forward?
My H has expressed so much doubt about our M and I basically showed him last night that he's right, I'll continue to jump to the worst conclusions.
How do I get back on track with H showing my best intentions?
