Is this MLC or WAS? Don't know what to do...

[BrightFuture]

Portia, thank you for your support. I actually did break down after a couple of hours since he left. I’ve been crying for 3 hours now and cannot stop. I thought that I accepted that he is going to D me. But I keep thinking of him taking his picture albums, and I realize that this is the end, and for some reason it devastated me. I thought I was detached enough by now.

I was asking the question about MLC because sometimes I think that I should avoid the conversation about the D, and give him some more time. Did I make a mistake today by agreeing to file?

I’m actually not concerned about protecting myself financially. He already agreed to leave me the house and he wants the condo in our vacation place. He is actually not even sure if he can afford it, since his work is seasonal and he never knows now much money he can make. He doesn’t spend money out of our joint accounts and there is no credit card debt of any sort. He is actually trying to limit his spending right now and thinking about how he is going to budget his life after the D. He was always honest about money, so I don’t feel that I have to worry about it right now. It could definitely change. Especially, if there is OW in the picture. But he said that he is most likely not going to be married again. Why does he want a D? Was it so bad for him in our marriage? I feel that I was the worst wife ever, if he wants out of this M so bad.