Thank you, GTO. I feel more composed now, though not yet back to normal. Now, to add to the lawyer drama: The paralegal got back to me this evening with an agreement that was nearly the same as the original one. Basically, they didn't make any of the changes my H and I agreed on. They also needed more $$, so the total expense will be over $6K. I emailed an update to my H. I was pretty upset, bc the court date is Friday and we basically have nothing. He called me shortly after saying he was going to sue the lawyer for not doing his work. He asked me to fire the L but I refused. I said it was important to me to not go to court, so I needed a L. Then he downplayed my feelings and the D itself by coming up with one of his insensitive comments: "Oh, whatever. You'll be fine. We'll get D, move on and be fine." I reminded myself that my H is my greatest teacher. He is teaching me about how to deal with insensitive people and how to constantly forgive. Ugh. I think he likes his current R bc he gets to play all of his sports and once he's done, at 10-11 PM, he can still spend time with her--which was his main complaint about me. He wanted to play sports every evening, come home late at night and have me wait for him to spend time together at that time. He would not agree to cut back on sports or come home for dinner a couple of times a week, which is what I was asking. He wants what he wants. No compromise. Maybe he found a woman who will do whatever he wants and accept his schedule--for now. And he wants to have children and keep the same schedule. Really. Now I'm the one to say whatever. Going to continue writing my book.
