Stuck..how do I get out???

[tiredndrained]

Talk about craziness... had argument with H this morning. Not so much an argument but I told him I can't take it any longer and why can't he just move out? It is enough already. He said he hates me and I told him that is fine...I don't care any more. He can hate me all he wants but why do I have to live with someone that hates me? He still swears there is no one else yet I continue to ask why he is off of the radar and not reachable after 9PM at night for the past year. Forgot all the other evidence I found. I still don't believe him. I told him if I go to the dollar store he is calling me 10 times to ask where I am but he leaves for 18 hours at a time with no call no explanation and I am supposed to just be "OK" with that? Ridiculous. I told him we don't have to live like this any longer. Why should I? He says he doesn't want to be with me, he sleeps on the couch, and runs around all night. What is my incentive at this point to stay living together...nothing!! It is hurting me and the kids. I told him other men hate their wives they just move out but you refuse to go. So, with that being said I came to work today and my phone was ringing all day. Why??? Because my H calling to see how I was doing, how my day was going and to just talk to me. He asked me to go to lunch with him. Told me he hopes I have a nice day. This is the kind of craziness I deal with day in and day out. He has no clue what he wants. He hates me but calls me all day to see how I am. He hates me but wants to come up to my work and take me to lunch. Am I crazy or is this all part of the rollercoaster ride that seems to never end?