I just caught up. Man, waiting...I seriously need a zanax after reading that. Deep breath.

You have gotten wonderful advice, really try to slow down and process it. Yes, we are here for spinning. I've done it. But I ususally just post the anger/spin, then write what I'm doing to not act on it. You spin, ask the same questions like you have no idea what the answer is.

You need to finish the book. You need to focus on you. What are your 3 GALS you will start this week? Not going out with friends, but a hobby, a home project, excersise program. Take ALL THIS ENGERGY you waste obessing about your H, and channel it into something for you!

M: 9 yrs
T: 13 yrs
H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months
Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs
Dbing 12/12
S 1/13
7/13 H moved back in basement.
8/13 #3 born
10/13 still cheating
10/13 He moves across country, I file for D