WAW-SC, good reading ahead! Just caught up on your situation - sorry that you find yourself here but is the best place to be for these situations.....

I see many similar characteristics in your story, and I can let you know (as others did for me) that it really does get better with time as you continue to improve yourself.

Stay strong! Thoughts and prayers are with you.

Me-48,W-51
M-22,T-24
S- 18,16,9
Feb-Jul '11 Away from Home, after initial B date
Aug-Dec '11 Back at Home on couch
Dec '11-now Same bedroom, room mates only
Dec '14 W files initial D paperwork