I'm sorry you are feeling down. I hope that things will be better for you soon.

I think some of the problem is that he's been nice to you lately and w/him still sharing the home, you might not feel as if you are moving on as you would have liked to. Is that it?

How are things going w/your classes?

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.