I'm glad the party went well and your h had a wonderful time. I'm sure you're tired, but happy for your little one.
No, you didn't imagine that your marriage was a good one. Whenever you are down, pull out those happy memories and allow them to give you strength to get through the day. Please do not allow mlc to fog up your glasses from the past.
Enjoy your day!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.