NILWY - There is this "chemistry" b/w us

[Kim65]

It's my second night at home on my own, I'm doing ok. Just trying not to think about H and OW and what their doing. I will admit that I'm not expecting to hear from him because that will make him feel guilty. That doesn't stop me from checking my phone to see if he has called or sent me a message.

I viewed a 2 bedroom unit today, which H knew about, I hope to move into by the end of the month if they accept my application. I've brought packing box's and plan to make a start this evening, hoping that when H gets home on the weekend he may start thinking about life without me around. This is going to be the hardest thing that I have had to do in many years....

Over the rest of the week I plan to keep myself busy, visit some friends and GAL. When I move out I plan to "go dark". From what I've read this is what I should do?? I know that I need to make him think that I'm moving on, be his friend but with a sense of distance??

I still think that this is all a bad dream and that I'm going to wake up and things will be "normal" again..

I have the DB book but I'm waiting for DR. I think I may get a little more out of it..

Looking forward to reading any words of wisdom...