Hi Psych, hope you're doing better today. I really relate quite strongly to your situation, as well as to Mr. 2.4's, so I know how hard and stressful it can be.
When you're living life on a roller coaster, it can be pretty difficult to keep you equilibrium. Are you working on detaching? Are you focusing on your 180s and GAL and PMA? As they say, "fake it till you make it" and become the person you choose to be so that your W will have someone she would be a fool to leave.
Can I ask if you're getting any exercise? I do a bit of running, and that feels great, especially after a tough day. You might want to consider it because exercise definitely improves your mood -- plus once you get in shape it gives the W a bit of eye candy
Keep us posted on things.
M41 W42 M 12 T 15 S10, D9, twin Ds 3 1/2 BD 1/2/2013 Living as roommates Working on D agreement w. mediator 5/13