Stuck..how do I get out???

[tiredndrained]

I started reading your posts tonight. Our sitchs are actually a lot alike except my H still there. I wish he would go though so i can just move on. I cant detach when he here. I try n try n just can't. Both my boys r angry n not happy bc their dad runs around all night long. It's not healthy for them or me to be here when their father wants to carry on a relationship w someone else all the time n pretend like we r a family when he shows up. I continue to ask him to just move out. I cant afford anything right now so it will be a strain n im not sure how i will do it but i cant do this any longer emotionally or i will get sick. I think my H needs to leave to really see what he is losing. He still denies seeing anyone else, yet fails to come home at night w any valid explanation. He's crazy n he's making me crazy. In the past yr I've found condoms, hotel receipts, movie tickets to movies ive never seen etc. He spends money like we r rich...n hasn't even looked for a job. Its insane n in starting to feel like im wearing down from it all...ok..sorry...its 3am...just venting.