"I don't WANT any of this, but it's not really up to me."
Yes it is. Your H wanted out of the M. That's HIS choice. You want to fight for it, that's YOUR choice. He can't make you not want to fight for the M and you can't make him fight for it. YOU have a choice. Just because your H isn't in agreement, doesn't mean that it affects how YOU see things.
If you want to fight for your M, then you're doing it with all the highs and lows that come along with it. Just like if he decided to work on the M, it would have highs and lows also.
Others can obviously see your worth. What you intend to do with it is up to you.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.