I know how you feel. The anxiety and stress that your body suffers in the first few months is exhausting and takes its toll on your body. I sense my own physical changes when I am heading over to see my W and pick up the boys, stress and anxiety levels increase 3 fold. You begin to realize that its not a good state to be in and that you need to overcome this and get healthy, breathe and continue with GAL.
And finally, what your feeling now is probably what your W has been feeling for some time before the BD...she probably didnt even realise it. Sorry to be harsh. My W told me after we seperated that she sometimes used to wish i wouldnt come home when I would go out in the evenings. I had no idea she had such strong feelings against me. It hurt a lot to hear it but it also made me realise how horrible it must have been to be around me sometimes. I had to take it on the chin.
Moth...give your W time.....BUT give yourself time too....as they all say on here, its a slow motion marathon.
Me - 37 W - 37 M -5 T - 15
S=5 S=3
Seperated - 12/12 BD - 20/03/13 Still seperated - no R or M talk yet.
