we own a biz - pt 5

[makingmagic]

yes, I am afraid of doing the wrong thing... for years... because I was always told it was the wrong thing! So, this turned me into a person who would then ask for h approval first. That doesnt work either! Nothing works!

Give me 1/2 credit, at least I knew not to jump to his last minute request... I just didn't know how to respond back.

I guess at this time, whats the worst that can happen? he will leave me? Uhhhmmm gee!

PON... don't you want me to post my "crazies here & not let him know about them?" He has no clue! As for 180 in business, you think its ok for him to be one way and I have to behave another? I am just standing up here. For example, its ok for him to not be available on Sunday, but expected me to be available 3times today, and then "on call" when he wanted me to drop for an unexpected client.

PON.. when you suggest that I stop discussing him, how can I ... when I have so much interaction with him that I am trying to process? Am I supposed to just internalize it, not post here, and go 3 days, till I can tell you all?

My 180's have to include business, most/all of our issues have to do with the business, because we weren't doing ANYTHING else, inspite of my requests for rel'p.

One of my new/recent 180's are to recognize that I am trying to control this situation. As much as I vent on here, I really am trying to back off & let what happens happens. So, when he is nice... I post here & am nice back... when he is distant... I post here & am giving space back... Is this not DB'ing?

I am putting my sitch in God/universe, and trying to trust that there is something better for me! Either way.