Stuck..how do I get out???

[tiredndrained]

Nice weather today. Took kids to soccer. H didn't go. I figure that he is the only one that loses when he doesn't take time for his kids. Hasn't been home much. I assume he busy w OW. Im not sure if its the nice weather or im just feeling better but im completely not paying attention to him n what he doing. He told kids to invite friends over to watch wrestlemania n he didn't bother to show to watch w them. Stuck me w task of cleaning house n dealing w a house full of wild boys. Not sure why he pushed so hard for them to watch it when he wasn't even coming home. Im biting my time at this point. I don't see a future. I just setting small goals for myself til my own bd when i say goodbye. I've noticed alto of posters say their H act like their best friends. My H does the same... find it so crazy to think he wants to be my friend n yet can do all this stuff to hurt me. Not sure what goes through their heads.