DBing, European style

[Papa4Life]

What a rotten day... I really thought that by doing my best to give W space and handling things at home with the kiddies that it would allow W to relax and maybe at least have a pleasant convo together. As if. I mean, did that e-mail have to be the FIRST thing she talks to me about? Jeez.

After I went for a run , I was pretty beat because I really went for it today so I could burn off some agro and stress. Then, W knocked on my door and was mentioning that it seemed like I was hurt by the e-mail she had sent. I didn't know what to say, then she talked about the stupid D plan we were going to discuss with the MC, as I wrote above ^^^. She mentioned something about how she knew I wanted to take our time to see how things developed or whatever, and told me that she wanted to take this concrete step. I ran the usual line by her about how I only wanted her to be happy. It's just so hard to talk to her because the only things we can talk about are the kids, her job, and D (which I avoid like the plague). I don't want to take any active steps towards D, but if W feels like she's gotta do everything it might just feel like more of the same to her because she has said she often had to arrange things on her own in the past. That's a bit unfair, because she is a native speaker, so most of the time she is ten times as confident making calls and whatnot, whereas I usually involved myself in executing the plans.

I dunno, I feel like things are slipping away. And I KNOW that she talks ad nauseum to all her friends about the sitch and all they're doing is telling her to drop me like a bad habit. But who am I to tell her not to talk to everybody about our personal lives? Maybe it's time to start rolling up the flags and breaking camp.