That's fine(underlined), and you don't have to abandon your dream. You need to find a middleground where you still have that dream, but also have an alternative route for your life. When you depend on H for happiness your putting all your eggs in one basket, and that basket is rocking away violently.
Together for 8,5 years. S2 Interest in OM. She left 29.09.12 b/c we couldn't work things out. No signs of OM, not digging. Living in seperate homes, sharing custody.