I'm new here and really have no advice to give, but I wanted to let you know that I think what you are doing and feeling are correct. I feel the same way about my W and sitch. I truly hope everything works out for you.
Thank you for sharing your life and thoughts. I know it helps me to put things in perspective and look at what I can do.
Good Luck
Me: 42 W: 42 M 6.5 T 10 Bomb 1/1/2013 1:00am waw 1/10/2013 I filed D 1/31/2013