Met someone

[grebjack]

No, I don't need a 2x4. I totally get it that married people don't date, and that falling for someone new is not a good staying-solution-focused strategy. I'm just recording where I'm at.

My marriage has been in its death throes for more than five years. I finally managed to "drop the rope" about nine months ago, not so much as a DB strategy but simply because I've lost hope. As Michelle argues, what I stopped doing my husband picked up. The last two times we got together were his initiative, as are our next two planned meetings, one of which, I think, is going to involve his crashing overnight at my house. Those of you who are always looking for reasons to be encouraging might argue that this is a great sign, but I think he just wants to part as friends and hanging out together counts as being friends.

In the past couple of weeks, I have become attracted to a friend and coworker who I'm pretty certain is attracted to me, too. He's funny, smart, considerate, gorgeous hair, ... You know the drill. Of course, I'm not trying to date him. I'm married. Hell, I still harbor hopes of reconciling my marriage and I don't want to be a tease. But lately I catch myself thinking about this new man a lot more often (and with more realistic hopes) than about my husband. I think he may have picked up on the fact that I'm attracted to him, too, which is probably really confusing, 'cause it's not common knowledge at work that my marriage is in disarray.

Not much else to say. Just, once again, finding myself in a place I never would have imagined possible.