The improvements in our relationship have come recently. I am sure that we are not out of the woods yet, but they are improvements, nonetheless.
I started becoming more like myself this past week. Instead of distancing and giving her lots of space, I started going back to the way I used to be. I touch her more than I have recently. I show her more affection. I compliment her. All of this is how I used to be with her.
When I touch her, she doesn't pull away. She smiles if I compliment her. She seems responsive. Don't misunderstand this. She still won't say she loves me. She still can come across as cold and unfeeling, but this is a vast improvement over how things have been. All of this has come about by my change towards her. I change, she responds.
My wife and I still have a very long distance to go. We both have lots of difficulty trusting each other. It's going to take time for the wounds to heal.
IF she decides she wants to be with me for the rest of her life. It's HER decision.
